And that, of course, was the trouble. She looked as cool and confident as any other girl here. More confident than most, maybe, especially when she was wearing these soft glove-leather trousers that hugged her slim hips and turned Suze green with envy.
She looked just fine. It was only inside that she knew she wasn’t. Wasn’t confident. Wasn’t fine. Wasn’t normal.
And wasn’t going to admit to any of it. Well, not in front of hornet man. She stuck her chin in the air and glared at him. And took a decision.
‘You can stop looking me up and down as if I’m livestock. You get my time nine to five, starting Monday morning,’ she told him crisply. ‘And that’s all your money buys you. Friday nights aren’t in the package.’
Suze drew in an audible breath.
He was taken aback. His head went back as if she had driven a foil straight at his chest.
Then he said dryly, ‘That sounds like St Bluestocking’s, all right.’
Zoe was still angry. ‘So apologise.’
Suze gave a soft whistle. But the man said slowly, ‘For what?’
‘For looking at me like that.’
‘Aren’t you being a bit over-sensitive?’ He was amused.
Amused! Zoe decided she wanted blood.
‘If I am, then you won’t want me to work for you, will you?’ she said with shining amiability.
‘I never said—’
She shook her head. ‘You know what over-sensitive people are like,’ she told him earnestly. ‘A real strain. Especially if management isn’t geared up to cope. So disruptive in a small office. Much better if we just call it quits now.’
And just see if Suze can get you someone else by Monday morning, you jerk.
She thought he would backtrack fast. But he didn’t. He looked at her for a long moment. In quite a different way this time.
Then he said, ‘What makes you think that the office is small?’
Zoe gave a rather good start of surprise. ‘Isn’t it?’ she asked, all artless confusion. ‘I just thought if they let someone like you hire the staff they wouldn’t be big enough to afford a proper human resources manager.’
Suze sucked on her teeth audibly.
But the man did not say anything for a moment. Then, ‘I—see. Yes, I can follow your reasoning there.’ His voice was tinged with unholy amusement.
For some reason Zoe suspected he had scored a point there, though she could not quite see what it was.
She said, ‘I really don’t think I should take the job if you’re not sure about my temperament…’
He laughed aloud. ‘I think you’ll cope.’
‘Oh, but I wouldn’t want you to be uncomfortable—’
‘Yes, you would,’ he interrupted. ‘And I don’t blame you, either.’
That disconcerted her. ‘Is that an apology?’ she said suspiciously.
‘I suppose it is.’ He sounded surprised at himself. He swung round on Suze, a silent spectator for once. ‘I apologise to both of you. I shouldn’t leap to conclusions. Sorry, Susan.’ He made her an odd, formal little bow, then looked at Zoe. ‘And sorry Ms Bluestocking, too. I’ll see you on Monday morning. No more snide remarks, Scout’s honour.’
‘Thank you,’ said Zoe. She meant to sound dignified, but even to her own ears it came out just plain sulky.
Suze sent her a quick, worried look. Hornet man did not notice.
‘That’s settled, then,’ he said cheerfully. ‘So now I’ll be on my way.’
Suze didn’t like that. ‘Going on to another party, Jay?’
He laughed. ‘Weekend in the country. And I’m not going to get there until after three in the morning at this rate. I’m not going to be popular.’
‘She’ll wait up for you,’ said Suze dryly.
But she did not say it very loudly, and Jay Whoever-he-was, running lightly down the steps and back among the partygoers, did not seem to hear.
Zoe let out a long, shaky breath and leaned against the trunk of the apple tree. Her legs felt as if they were made of cotton wool. Gently vibrating cotton wool.
‘Tell me it’s not true,’ she begged. ‘Tell me I haven’t just signed up with Captain Blood!’