“That you have to be more specific.” I pop a fry in my mouth.
“For someone who completed all four years, you have to like medicine at least a little bit, right?”
“There are people who suffered through med school, but I wasn’t one of them.” I slide the mustard aside and grab the glass ketchup bottle. “I enjoyed medicine, just not like my family.”
“What do you mean?” He uses a straw to push the ice in his soda.
I unscrew the bottle. “It’s not just about medicine for them. My father, my grandfather, great-grandfather, great-great grandfather all share the same name and the same profession.” I pour ketchup in the French fry basket. “There’s status and pride in continuing this legacy and obtaining the MD. And I really couldn’t care less about honoring a generational tradition.”
“Why not just be a doctor for you and say fuck them?”
“That’s why I finished medical school.” I wipe my hands on a napkin. “I genuinely wanted to help people. But every day I thought about how I was another Keene falling obediently in line, and I just couldn’t breathe. I remember doing rounds in med school and feeling wrong. Like out-of-body.” I rake my fingers through my hair. “Like I was experiencing someone else’s life that wasn’t supposed to be mine.”
Maximoff nods. He’s a good listener; he always looks interested in what people have to say. At least when he’s not staring off into space.
“There’s a possibility,” I tell him, “that I only liked medicine because it’s all I knew; it’s what I was conditioned to do. And I can honestly say it’s the only thing that’s ever terrified me.”
He thinks for a second before asking, “So how’d you decide that security detail was the right fit?”
“I’d been taking MMA classes for years at Studio 9. Akara suggested I try security training. I liked it.”
Maximoff is quiet for an even longer moment.
“You can say it. I’m not easily offended.”
He leans forward some. “So you like the fame without being famous: the fine-dining, the yacht trips—”
“Me?” I give him a look. “I was born to an aristocratic lineage of pretentious assholes; I didn’t need to guard a celebrity to get a five-star meal.”
He begins to smile. “Then why do you like it? What’d you tell me yesterday about security work?”
“This profession is notorious for inducing three things.”
Maximoff nods, remembering what I said. “Sobriety, celibacy, and sleeplessness.” He gestures to my chest. “Why put up with the weird hours, isolation, inconsistent days and sleepless nights?”
“For your life,” I say. “I’m here to protect you, and I love being put in high-stress situations and coming out on top. Wearing a white coat isn’t the only way to impact a life. My father never understood that.”
He’s speechless.
Maximoff keeps swallowing, and he turns his head, a smile forming.
“You’re grinning,” I point out.
“Shut up,” he says flatly and then rubs his jaw, looking right at me. “We’re so different.”
“I know.” He has enough siblings and cousins to create their own flag football team. I have one older stepsister who lives halfway across the country. I see her maybe once every three years. If that. And it’s something deeper.
It’s how his family is a life force that keeps him breathing and waking up in the morning. Mine was suffocating me. I made a career decision at the cost of hurting my father.
Maximoff would probably sooner fall to his death than betray his.
Where I go rogue, he stays loyal.
I recall a brief conversation we had a few days ago. He told me that he didn’t go through with a Batman tattoo because it’d kill his dad. Everyone knows that Loren Hale is a diehard Marvel fanboy, and Maximoff cares about hurting him.
Over a tattoo.
“I don’t know how you can care so emphatically about your parents,” I tell him.
Maximoff outstretches his arm. “They’ve given me everything. I don’t feel indebted to them, but I feel like it’s my duty to pay it forward somehow. Some damn way.”
I lean back on my chair legs again. “Like taking over your family’s companies?” Fizzle, Hale Co., Cobalt Inc. are multi-billion dollar family businesses that their parents inherited. Then they created their own conglomerations: Calloway Couture, Halway Comics, Superheroes & Scones, Cobalt Diamonds, Camp Calloway—the list goes on and on.
The Hale-related businesses could one day be passed down to Maximoff, and that’d be his life.
“If I could take over Hale Co., I would in a heartbeat,” he says, “but my dad, for whatever reason, says no on a daily basis.”
Good.
Loren Hale is keeping Moffy twenty-two and not aging him to fifty, and since Maximoff collects responsibility like it’s his favorite toy, I doubt he’d recognize that.
Maximoff sits up straighter, and I hone in on his confident demeanor that hoists his body like he’s ready to go. For a run, a fight, a competition, mind-blowing sex—anything. It’s not manufactured resolve or tenacity; it’s palpable.
24/7.
I lower my chair legs and shift forward. Shit.
I’m ensnared without a fucking trap even being set.
“So let’s rewind,” he says. “Say that you hypothetically finished your year internship and started your residency, where would you’ve wanted to end up? Surgery or—”
“Emergency medicine.” I fiddle with the saltshaker again. “But I didn’t have a choice.”
His brows knot. “What do you mean?”
I frown. “You really don’t know?” By his sheer confusion, I realize that he never figured it out. I edge forward, arms on the table. “Maximoff…I was going to become your concierge doctor.”
12
MAXIMOFF HALE
I STIFFEN, my face padlocked of emotion. Except for my sharpened cheekbones. My first thought: avoiding Farrow was always going to be unavoidable. In every alternate universe, I’m stuck with him.
My second thought makes me cringe.
“What?” Farrow asks, his fingers absentmindedly nudging his silver rings. He notices how I’m eyeing his hands. His know-it-all smile fucking kills me, and I swear he’s one second from saying, do you like that?
And I think, too damn much.
I’m not sharing the intimate details of my second thought. How his father checked up on me when I was eleven and had a rash on my dick. From chlorine irritation. Imagine if that Dr. Keene had actually been Farrow—cringe with me.
I gesture to him. “I had a mild stroke at the thought of you being my doctor.” I feign surprise. “If only you were my doctor, you could actually save me right now.” My mouth falls. “What an idea.”
“You wouldn’t be talking if you had a stroke.”
I wear my irritation, and he laughs on cue, loving to pop whatever humor I cast into the world. It shouldn’t turn me on, but most people just placate me. Farrow does the opposite.
When his laughter fades, he stares at me with a peeking smile.
I bite into an ice cube, my stomach tossing in a weird way. Almost excited. “What?” I ask now.
“You want me to save you?” His brows rise with his barbells.
“I’d rather die,” I say instinctively.
“Maximoff.” He stretches closer to me. Over the table, and his voice drops to the deep, rough octave that strokes my cock. “As your bodyguard, I can’t let that happen.”
My gaze latches intensely onto his. And his brown eyes plaster ont
o my green. So strongly that I’m drop-dead positive we’re forcing ourselves not to look lower. Not to our lips, not to our bodies. Not to any forbidden place that’d cause disaster.
I try to master restraint, but my eyes say what my mouth can’t.
Kiss me.
He reads them.
I know he reads them, and our chests collapse and rise in heavy unison. Jesus Christ.
I can’t.
We can’t.
But I think, fucking kiss me.
Just do it.
Farrow moves his hand. To put his earpiece back in, and then he sits his ass down. “They’re coming inside, behind you.”
I turn my stiff neck, and sure enough, Janie walks through the entrance with Quinn out in front. Headed towards the table. She wears a pastel purple tulle skirt and a striped top that put her on Celebrity Crush’s Worst Dressed list this morning. She didn’t care.
I blink once, and they’ve already reached us. Jane collapses on the chair beside me, and I wrap my arm around the back of hers. I push beyond whatever the hell just happened with Farrow. I have no other choice but to move forward.
Janie very subtly glances between Farrow and me, but thankfully says nothing about any lingering tension. “Dis-moi qu’ils ont du café,” she whispers, hands in prayer formation. Please tell me they have coffee.
“Je ne sais pas.” I don’t know.
Quinn takes a seat beside Farrow and says, “Another reminder that I really need to read that French textbook Akara gave me.”
Jane’s eyes glimmer with curiosity and she places her chin on her fist, elbow to the table. “And how is that going?”
“Bien.” Good. Quinn shrugs. “It’d be easier if you two just switched to Portuguese.”
I’d tell Quinn that we don’t know Portuguese like him, but I’m super-glued to the fact that he’s actually learning French. I look at Farrow. “Did Akara give you a French textbook, too?”
“No. Because he knew it’d go straight into the dumpster.”
“I’m glad we’ve found the location of your apathy,” I tell him.