A small laugh rumbles in my throat. He is just as frustrated as I am. Thank you, Jesus. I tease the buttons of his uniform, feeling his muscles clench underneath my fingers. “I don’t want gentle right now. I want you to take me.”
He nods firmly, understanding exactly what I need. He keeps one hand on my face but brings the other around my neck, gripping it with that possessive hunger of his that riles me up like nothing else. “I was trying to be good, baby. I wanted you to see that I’m not that same guy you once knew. I’ll never be that guy. I’ll never hurt you, Mia, and I’ll fucking kill anyone that does. But this is it. Once I have you again, I’m not letting you go. So you better be damn sure this is what you want because there’s no going back after this.”
I snake my hands around his neck, brushing over his hammering pulse. “Good.” I tilt my head up and press my lips softly against his. “Fuck me, Ben. Show me that I’m yours.” My words blow against his mouth and they’re the only coaxing he needs.
My heart is his and right now, I want him to claim my body.
* * *
Chapter Thirteen
Ben
“Fuck me, Ben. Show me that I’m yours.”
When those words escaped her perfect mouth, I felt my entire body surge with power. My adrenaline spiked and the commanding need I had for Mia that I’d dulled out with friendship came screaming back to life inside me. There was never any doubt in my mind who she belonged to. And after tonight, there would never be any doubt in hers either.
“If I’m too rough with you, you need to tell me,” I say against her lips, backing her body up to the bed. I’m so geared up right now, so tightly wound that I know the only way I’ll be able to hold back is if she can’t handle it. I’m feeling speedy, like a racehorse who’s been let out of the gate and I need her to be honest with me. I’ve never felt out of control before but Mia has the ability to make me lose my shit completely. “Baby, promise me you’ll tell me if I hurt you.” I push her down onto the bed, grabbing her legs and spreading them wide as I settle in between them.
She stares up at me with nothing but trust in her eyes. I’m certain with the look she’s giving me that I can do anything to her right now and she won’t waver. She pulls her top over her head before saying, “I will but I won’t have to. I want this just as bad as you do. Please don’t hold back, Ben. I’m not fragile.”
No, she isn’t. I have to remind myself that this isn’t the same Mia that used to be afraid of cliff diving at Rocky Point. I’ve met my match in this woman, both in and out of the bedroom.
She begins working at her shorts when I stop her, batting her hands away. “Those are mine to take off.” I pull them down with her panties, tossing them somewhere behind me. She’s naked, completely bare to me, and I almost forget how to fucking breathe. I take a moment to stare at her, appreciating every dip and curve of her body. Her hands drum the sheet at her sides as she allows me to have my moment. I raise my gaze to her face and she wets her lips. “You’re the sexiest woman I’ve ever seen. And you have no idea, do you? You have no clue how stunning you are.” I make quick work of my shirt, unbuttoning it halfway and pulling it over my head to get on with it.
Mia laughs softly below me, stretching her body out on the bed. “I thought you said you weren’t going to be gentle with me? I don’t want sweet, romantic, Benjamin Kelly right now.”
I cock my head at her and she smiles. “You’ll take what I give you.” I pull my belt off and drop my pants and boxers, stepping out of both. “I can fuck you and tell you how crazy I am about you. I’m very capable of making you scream and worshipping you at the same time.” I am about to spread my body on top of hers when she sits up unexpectedly and grabs my cock. Her eyes are blazing, filled with a stark need. I groan deep in my throat and stop her hand from moving. “Fuck, baby. I know you want to play right now, but I’m too damn wound up for that. I’m not coming in your hand and if you touch me anymore, that’s exactly what’s going to happen.”
She arches her brow at me. So playful and seductive at the same time. “I was hoping you’d come in my mouth.”
Ah hell. My dirty little angel never ceases to amaze me. I stroke along her bottom lip with my thumb. “Baby, soon, very soon I will fuck this pretty little mouth. But right now, I need to be inside you. I need to feel you around me.” And then my world collapses in on itself. Fucking motherfucker. I squeeze my eyes tight and step back out of her needy grasp.
“What is it?”
What the fuck? I run my hands down my face and curse under my breath. “I was not at all anticipating this happening between us for a while. I honestly thought it would take a lot longer for you to see that I’m not a complete dickhead anymore and let me anywhere near your body.” I drop my hands and meet her puzzled face. She has no idea what I am getting at. “I don’t have any condoms with me. And I’m not searching the house for them because that’s just fucking weird. Please tell me you have some.”
Her face falls in disappointment. “No, I don’t. You don’t have any in your truck?”
Her optimism is adorable. I shake my head and rake my hand through my hair roughly. “No. Nolan likes to snoop around in there and I’m always afraid he’s going to find one and think it’s a damn balloon or something.”
She giggles and pulls her knees up to her chest. I’m about to tell her that we don’t have to have sex tonight, that I’d be completely content with just holding her, because I would, when suddenly she drops the playful demeanor and looks at me with a fierce passion. “You know I’ve only been with you,” she says, her voice dropping to a soft purring sound. “And I’m on birth control, so there wouldn’t be any risk of me getting pregnant. So as long as you’re clean, I don’t see why this is a problem.”
I just died. This has to be what heaven is like. Dirty little angels floating around, tempting you with barrier free sex. Is there any man on the planet that could actually say no to this? I inhale deeply, trying to calm my painful erection that is all for driving into her wet heat without being wrapped up. “I’m clean.” And I apparently don’t need that much convincing. “I’ve never done it without a condom. Nolan resulted from one that had a tear in it.” I step closer to her and she scoots back on the bed, reaching out for me with an eager hand.
“So I’ll be your first this way? I love that.”
I move toward the bed, getting up on my knees as she relaxes back onto a pillow. “Are you sure though? Baby, I could just eat your pussy for a good hour, maybe several and be fucking perfect with that. There’s no need to rush this.”
“But there is.” She grabs my hand and I give her the other one so that both our hands are linked together. I’m kneeling between her legs, staring down into those chocolate brown eyes that hold me by the balls and could make me do practically anything right now. “We don’t have forever, Ben. I’m only here for the summer. I have two months left to be with you and I don’t want to waste another second not being with you the way I want to be. I love that you gave me time to get to know who you are now and I wouldn’t take that back. But I don’t need any more time. I just need you.” She spreads her legs, dropping them on either side of mine. “You’re the only man that’s ever had me. Take what’s yours.”