"While she's pregnant and powerless? Non. No way in hell." Reading my expression, he said, "You show me some oaks or some big powers, and we'll talk. Until then, you need to hole up somewhere safe. If a weapon comes our way, then I will be heading in."
Joules turned to me. "Are you goin' to let Jack go up against four Arcana, including the three-time winner?"
Against Death? "Never."
Jack and I exchanged determined looks.
"Then what're we doing?" Joules threw up his hands. "Any weapon's useless without a hero to wield it."
"That's for Circe to figure out," I said. "Our job is to stay alive long enough to use whatever she comes up with. Look, she might figure out how to short-circuit the sphere. In which case, we can all ride in, full-force. Let's give the lady a chance. It's only been a few days." I turned to Kentarch. "While we wait, you could continue your search for Issa. I've been hearing all kinds of accents, which means people have come here from across the country. Question them. Show them her picture. Someone might have seen her. With good nutrition, you could teleport from here each night."
Kentarch tilted his head. "Very well. But once my leads are exhausted, I will be forced to move on. Issa awaits me . . . ."
29
Later that night, I lay on a lumpy pallet listening to the gusting winds that rocked our new home: the highest shipping container in a stack of them.
We'd gotten the worst accommodations because the Chariot had refused to sell his chariot, and we had nothing to barter besides weapons.
"You got a hide-a-key," Jack had said. "If we need the truck, you can just steal it back from the parking yard." They were already planning to ghost through the wall of Jubilee's arsenal and reclaim their weapons--probably the only reason Jack had given up his crossbow, with great reluctance.
Kentarch had shaken his head firmly. "I need to own it, so I can offer it as a reward for information leading me to Issa."
Jack had opened his mouth to argue, but surprisingly, he'd backed off.
Another gust hit. I squeezed my eyes shut. Would we be blown right into the trench?
Think of something else. I laid my hands on my belly, but quickly drew them away. This pregnancy was no comfort. The opposite of.
Even over the winds, I heard Joules's soft snores. Were Jack and Kentarch asleep as well? The guys had cots on the other end of the container, giving me the pallet behind a curtain on this end.
When the tin-can salesman--a Ciborium guard--had shown us this place, he'd asked the guys, "Is she with all of you?" We'd learned that four usually lived in one of these containers, a wife and husbands--plural. Because Jubilee encouraged females to marry a minimum of three.
While Jack had been momentarily stumped by the man's question and Kentarch incredulous, Joules had snorted. "Sounds right." Dick.
Before leaving, our salesman had advanced the guys gear for the trench--waterproof coveralls, performance boots and gloves, neon quilted parkas, and miners' helmets--against their future finds.
The Ciborium company store demanded eighty percent of everything workers salvaged.
We'd also received a few boxes of macaroni and cheese, since Lorraine insisted that all newcomers got a meal advance. This was the first time since the Flash that any stranger had offered up food--other than human flesh or the poisoned fare the Hermit had plied me with.
I'd been suspicious--was this a feast when our stomachs cleave?--but nothing bad had happened.
The tin can came with some cookware and a potbellied stove with enough busted-up wooden crates to start a fire for boiling water. Jack had helped me prepare the food, giving me more from his share. As usual. I'd been about to protest, but he'd glanced at my stomach and said, "Tee needs it more than I do."
Another gust rocked the container. I turned on my side, then to my other. Anxiety bubbled up inside me. Finally, I whispered, "Jack?"
The curtain drew back at once. "I'm here." He'd just been waiting there? "I'd hoped you were sleeping through this." Shirtless and barefoot, he wore only a low-slung pair of jeans and his rosary.
I held out my hand for him. He closed the curtain behind him, then lay beside me on the pallet. Even in the low firelight of the stove, I could make out the new scar on his chest. The last time I'd seen him without a shirt, he'd just taken Aric's advice to sear the Lovers' mark, obscuring it.
I reached forward to touch the scar. "This healed well."
"Put it with my collection." He sighed. "Might as well get this over with." He turned to reveal raised scars across his back.
I stifled a gasp, unable to imagine that pain. Don't cry, don't cry. "What happened?" I traced one, making him shiver.
"I was a disobedient slave."
Those slavers had whipped my Jack. I balled my fists, my claws sharpening.
"They made a mess of me, non?" In a gruff tone, he said, "Not like you're used to with perfect Death?"
"He has scars as well. He's not perfect. Besides, do you think I give a damn about scars when you're alive?"
The winds howled, shifting the container stack once more. Jack faced me, noting my wary gaze. "I'm goan to get us a better place soon." In Jubilee, you didn't work your way up, but down.
"I'm grateful to have a roof over our heads and food. Thank you for getting us here."
"You deserve more." Shadows crossed his expression as he said, "When Dominija told me how you were 'indulged' in every way at that castle, I wanted to throat-punch him--because we all knew I could never provide the life that he could. I'll never be able to spoil you like you were used to. You were raised to expect better."
"Jack, that's not me anymore. That's not anyone now," I said, though I thought Lorraine was doing pretty well for herself inside her megayacht. "Let's focus on what we've got right now."
"Not my nature, me. I need to be thinking about the long game. Need to be working toward something. At least we could kill it at salvage here."
When Lorraine had explained that they had more bounty than hands to harvest it, she'd been a touch disingenuous. We'd found out there'd been a Rift, what the locals called mass deaths when the pile of ships moved, trapping salvagers beneath the surface. That was why the Ciborium had sent a flare to call others to the new coast.
Jack was heading into danger tomorrow, and nothing I'd said could dissuade him.
I tried to look on the bright side of Jubilee. No one forced folks into the trench. Lorraine's armband patrol kept order. With her plank, she was a ruthlessly effective leader.
So why did my intuition tell me she was a threat? Or was that my paranoia, born from bitter experience?
Echoing my misgivings, the wind blasted over this metal box, sounding like the scream of that condemned man.
When I shuddered, Jack pulled the blanket up higher around me. "Doan be scared. I've got you."
I loved it when he said that, but . . . "I can't help it. Even if it's not the wind and this strange place, it's the future." I burrowed into the blanket. "Though I wish I was fearless, I'm not. I still get afraid."
"But you do brave things. That's what matters."
"Only when I have no other choice." Anything "brave" I'd ever done had been because the alternative was unthinkable.
Storm the Lovers' camp to save Jack from torture? Of course.
Draw down on that bottomless pit? No thank you. If uncontrollable emotion could turn a card, would that well reverse me?
"Doan matter why you do something. Just that you do." His hand absently strayed to his rosary. It'd belonged to his mother, but he'd never revealed to me how she'd died.
"I just wish I had a better handle on what was coming my way. I'm afraid of the unknown. Of labor. Of having a kid when there's no sun. We're all on borrowed time. Why would I ever put someone else in that situation?"
"Mark my words, Evangeline, there'll be sun again one day for Tee."
I wished I could believe that. "This limbo is about to drive me crazy." Was I married? Would Aric ever be in my life again? A m
emory arose of him saying, I was called Aric. It means a ruler, forever alone. But, for a time, he hadn't been alone. He'd been happy with me. Or I'd thought he had been.
Real? Unreal?
"Maybe we doan have to be in limbo." Jack hesitated, gazing past me with his brows drawn. "I told you how things were goan to go down. But now, I got new information."
"What are you thinking?"
He faced me. "We might have another option besides the castle. There's work here and a doctor for the baby. You're safer from Richter on the coast. Jubilee's better than the Ash, and it beats dying at the hands of other Arcana."
"Is Jubilee better? I didn't get the greatest feeling about Lorraine."
"I thought she was okay. She's got this place running smooth."
I quirked a brow.
"Look, if you doan like it here, then let me build up enough of a stash to last us for a few months. We get twenty percent of whatever we find. With Kentarch, we could smuggle out even more. Once we're outfitted, we'll head south. The Fool hinted that I could do some good down there." He held my gaze. "Bottom line: Death ain't your only option."
"We can't just leave him under Paul's control." I still burned to fight for him. But I didn't know if I burned to be with him. Could I ever move past his attack and my nightmares? "Aric once told me that you were the closest thing he's had to a friend since his father died. Would you abandon him to his fate?"
Jack's jaw muscle ticked. How did he feel about that admission?
"I thought you felt gratitude toward him for saving me."
"Exactly! You and I both know Dominija wouldn't want you anywhere near that castle. He'd want me to keep you and Tee safe. Here with me. That arrogant bastard would beg me to keep you."