Waiting, she dozed.
The barking woke her, sent her heart leaping into her throat.
A pair of dogs raced around the front of the house, bumping together, tumbling over a patch of grass.
She lifted the glasses again as a man came out. Tanned, strong-looking in faded jeans and a T-shirt. He wore a ball cap over a shaggy mop of brown hair and sunglasses that obscured his eyes.
He loaded a couple of bushel baskets full of produce into the truck, walked back into the house. He came out again with two more before whistling to the dogs.
They both jumped into the back of the truck. After loading the other baskets, he got into the cab, drove away.
She counted to sixty, then counted again before rising.
She could hear nothing but birds, chittering squirrels. Using a hand to support her pregnant belly, she picked her way down the rocky slope, eyes trained on the house.
If he didn’t live alone, someone might be inside. Though she wanted to make a run for the garden, she approached the house cautiously, circling it to peer in windows.
Another porch ran along the back, and in the bold sun grew herbs. Pulling her knife she cut basil, rosemary, thyme, oregano, chives, dill, reveled in the scents as she pushed them into a plastic bag from her pack.
Someone could be inside, on the second floor. But she’d risk it.
She ran as quickly as her skewed center of gravity allowed and plucked a tomato from the vine. Bit into it like an apple, swiped the juice from her chin.
She picked pea pods, a handful of string beans, a glossy eggplant, tugged up a carrot, a bulb of garlic. She picked lettuce, ate a leaf while she gathered what she could carry in her pack, her pockets.
Apples, a little on the green side, went into her pack along with a cluster of purple grapes from a vine. She ate some where she stood looking down at two stone markers under the shade of the apple tree.
Ethan Swift
Madeline Swift
They’d died in the plague, Lana noted, in February, two days apart.
And someone—the farmer?—had marked their graves and planted a sunbeam-yellow rosebush between them.
“Ethan and Madeline, I hope your souls found peace. Thank you for the food.”
Eyes closed, she stood in the dappled shade, wished she could curl up under the tree and sleep. Wake in a world without fear and constant movement. Where Max could put his arms around her, and their baby would be born in peace and safety.
That world, she thought, was done. Living in this one meant doing what needed to be done next.
She glanced toward the clucking, humming chickens, imagined sautéing chicken in one of the pats of butter she’d hoarded, flavored with fresh garlic and herbs.
And figured while the farmer probably wouldn’t miss the vegetables, he’d surely miss a chicken. And since she might want to stay in the area for a day or two, she’d come back, relieve him of one of the hens before she moved on.
For now, she’d settle for a couple of eggs.
She walked through the pecking chickens into the open coop, where she found a single brown egg under a single roosting bird who seemed as wary of her as Lana was of it.
“He gathered the eggs earlier,” she murmured. “I’m lucky you held back.”
“She usually does.”
Lana whirled, the egg clutched like a grenade in one hand, her other thrust out ready to throw power and defense.
He held his hands up, away from the gun on his hip.
“I’m not going to give you grief over an egg, or whatever else you helped yourself to. Especially since you’re eating for two. I’ve got water if you need it. Milk, too. A little bacon to go with that egg.”
She had to swallow before speaking the first word to another human since she’d left New Hope. “Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why would you give me anything? I was stealing.”
“So was Jean Valjean.” He shrugged. “He was hungry, too. Look, you can take the damn egg and go, or you can come inside, have a hot meal. It’s up to you.”
She lowered her hand, laid it on her belly. Thought of the baby.
He’d planted a rosebush for his dead. She would take it as a sign.
“I’d appreciate a hot meal. I can barter for it, and for the fruits and vegetables I took.”
He smiled then. “Whatcha got?”
“I can work for it.”
“Well.” He scratched the back of his neck. “We can talk about that.”
He stepped back, gave her plenty of room.
She could still run, Lana thought.
“Lady, if I wanted to hurt you, I’d have already done it.”
Now he turned, walked to where she saw the dogs—prancing and wagging—just outside the chicken wire.
“How did you know I was here?”
“I caught the flash of the sun on your field glasses. Or what I figured was field glasses. The dogs and I decided we’d head out, stop up the road, and walk back to see what you were up to. They won’t hurt you.”
As if to prove it, both dogs—big with thick, creamy fur and madly happy eyes—moved in to rub their bodies against her legs. “That’s Harper, that’s Lee. Mockingbird was my mother’s favorite book.”
She saw him glance toward the apple tree, the graves. Feeling foolish holding on to it, she handed him the egg. “Your parents?”
“Yeah. Yeah,” he said again, starting toward the house. “Those boots have some miles on them.”
“They did when I found them.”
Accepting that, he continued out, walked onto the porch, opened the unlocked front door. When she hesitated, he let out an impatient breath.
“I was raised in this house by the two people I buried out there. They lived here for thirty-five years, made a good life for themselves and for me. I’m damn well not going to disrespect them by pulling any crap on a pregnant woman under the roof they gave me. In or out?”
“Sorry. I’ve forgotten people can be decent.”
She stepped inside, into a wide, comfortable living room with a big stone fireplace, easy furniture that mixed styles in a cheerful, welcoming way.
It boasted considerable dust and dog hair.
Stairs made a jog up. A laundry basket full of jumbled sheets and towels sat on the bottom step.
He continued down a hallway, paused when she did at a room lined with shelves jammed with books and trinkets.
“My mother was a fierce reader. I’ve been catching up on reading lately myself.”
Like a dream—was she dreaming—the room drew her in, the memories of a life she’d once had. And more, as she reached out, took a book from the shelf, the love.
“Max Fallon. She liked his stuff. I haven’t tried him yet. Are you a fan?”
She looked up, eyes drenched, clutching the book, her love’s picture, to her heart. “My … my husband.”
“He was a fan?”
“Max.” She began to rock, to weep. “Max. Max.”
“Shit.” He pulled off his cap, raked hands through his hair. “Maybe you should sit down. You can keep the book. Just … I’m going to, ah, bring the truck back. So…” He gestured, eased out of the room.
She did sit, on the edge of a big chair of navy blue leather, and wept herself empty.
He hiked up the road for the truck, came back, put a kettle of water on.
She’d looked wound tight in the henhouse, he thought. Ready—and he suspected able—to hold her own. Eyes—big and summer blue—exhausted but fierce. And the pregnant—really pregnant—had struck him then as adding a fertile warrior angle to her.
But there, in his mother’s library, all that had fallen away, leaving her frail, vulnerable, broken.
He did better with the fierce and able.
When he heard her coming, he put a frying pan on the stove.
“I’m sorry,” she said.
“Losing somebody sucks. Pretty much everybody left knows how much.” He went to the refrigerat
or, took out bacon wrapped in cloth. “Max Fallon was your husband.”
“Yes.”
“Did you lose him in the Doom?”
“No. He got us out of New York. He got us away and kept us safe. They killed him. His brother killed him.”
“His brother?”
“His brother turned to the dark, his brother and the twisted witch who turned him. His brother, and the men who hate us because we’re not like them. They wanted to kill me. Her.”
She wrapped her arms around the mound of her belly. “Max saved us. He died for us. They killed him. Eric, his brother, and the Purity Warriors. They killed Max, killed people we were building a life with. Tried to kill more. I had to leave because they wanted me and would kill whoever stood in their way. They hunted me. They may still be hunting me.
“They’ll try to kill you if you help me.”
He nodded, said, “Huh.” Then turned back to the stove. “You want the eggs scrambled or fried?”
She’d worked herself up again, was nearly breathless with it. Her hands clutched at her sides. “Who are you?”
“Swift. Simon Swift. In another life I was Captain Swift, U.S. Army. In this one, I’m a farmer. Who are you?”