“Aren’t you going to add ‘and the mere fact that I fell quickly in love with you didn’t help with my confusion’? I can’t. I’m not ready…and our relationship is shattered. It’s done,” he said. “It all comes down to sex, does it not?” his soft voice sounded strangled.
“It does but don’t pretend you didn’t relish the opportunity. You practically ravished me and swallowed me whole the minute you could.”
“Why wouldn’t I? I waited for months to have you! I’ve been so enchanted by you—you simply took my breath away!”
My eyes started to tear. “If you wanted me that badly back then, why didn’t you tell me about your engagement?”
“I was afraid you’d leave me and I didn’t want to take a chance. But in the end it didn’t matter because you left anyway.”
“It wasn’t easy for me to leave you—you must know that! But I had to—you lied! You were engaged and God knows what you’ve been doing behind my back. I didn’t know if you kept seeing her while you were with me. I couldn’t handle it.” His jaws clenched.
I sat there vigilantly until he spoke again.
“Is there any chance for us….to get back together?” His eyes looked desperate and pained.
“Blake—we’ve been here before.” I nervously bit my lip to stop it from wobbling.
He wiped away tears that were escaping my eyes. “I’m sorry. Don’t cry. I don’t ever want to see you cry. I’m sorry.” He gathered me in his arms and cradled my body while I silently wept.
After all my tears were spent, I stared at his soaked shirt. I’m going to miss this. I’m going to miss him terribly. Like an addict, I moved closer to smell his skin and softly kissed it. My lips kissed all the way to the sensitive part on the back of his ear, his breathing hitched.
“This is just sex for you isn’t it?” he asked softly.
“Is that so bad? Don’t you like it with me?” I quickly glanced at him. He looked sad again.
“That’s the thing Sienna—I like it more than I should given the circumstances.”
I got off his lap and stripped before him. His eyes flashed hungrily over my br**sts. “Do you want to take me one last time?”
“No!” He denied vehemently but his eyes were glued on my boobs. “Are you sure?” I rasped. I moved closer to him.
“Damn it Sienna!” He roared and swiftly placed me flat on the bed in a blink of an eye. “Is this what you want?” he asked as he painfully captured my nipple in his teeth.
“Yes,” I responded with a moan.
His hand found my slick nub and rubbed it crassly. “All you ever want is my cock, isn’t it?” Blake hissed with loathing.
I should’ve stopped him. But I was delirious. “Blake—please…I want you.”
“No!” He yelled in anger.
WTF!
“What do you mean? Your hand’s rubbing me and caressing my boobs!” I stared at him like he lost his mind. Why was he touching me then?
“For bloody f**ks sake! Didn’t you hear me?” He shrilled with apparent anger.
“I did—but I don’t believe you.”
He stared at me for a long time then his smile turned wicked.
9
Blake
“I’ll f**k you on one condition, Sienna”
“What is it?” Her eyes glazed with desire. “I want you to spend five nights with me in Marbella. If it’s sex you’re after—you’re going to get it. I want you ready for me every single time I want you. If I ask you to open your legs, you open them without hesitation. I want to f**k you in all holes—in all ways imaginable. That’s my condition.”
She sat up and stared at me in shock and dismayed expression while I played with the crevice of her pu**y. “All holes?”
I smiled devilishly at her. “Yes, my sweet. I want to f**k you in the ass.” The thought of her that way made me twitch in my pants. I’ve done it a few times and I loved it. It was different compared to pu**y but it was just as pleasurable.
“I’ve never tried that before.”
“I know—that’s why you’ll want to give it to me. I’ll be your first and you wouldn’t have a chance in Hades about forgetting me.”
“Can I think about it?” She hesitantly asked me. She looked like she was weighing her options. I reached out for her nipple and pinched it and my other hand rubbed her pu**y. “No, you can’t think about it. It’s either yes or no and I want your answer right now.” Her body started to quiver and she threw her head back loving what I’m doing to her. She’s so f**king perfect. It hurt.
“What is it to be my sweet? Do you submit yourself to me with no restrictions or not?”
“I can’t think when—you touchhh me llike thhat—” stuttering her words. I know it’s cruel—but I didn’t want her to say no. Sex is something she has a hard time saying no to. It was the best weapon.
“What my love?” Fuck! Don’t call her that again you daft man!
“Yes…if that’s what you wish…”
Funny, I wished for more but she didn’t want it. She just wants to f**k. How bizarre is this? I never thought I would know how it feels to be used. What hurt even more was the fact that I loved the woman who used me.
“It is. Are you sure you will comply with my set of demands? I don’t want you to say yes now and say no tomorrow.” Taking my hands off her, the thought of her backing out the last minute didn’t sit well with me.
“I promise—I won’t back down. I think we both need this. We really need to get it out of the way. Tell me to jump and I’ll ask how high. I’ll do this for you—”
There was a knock on the door. “We’re on our way to see Chad. Follow when you can. We’ll meet you both there.” Toby yelled against the door. We didn’t speak until we heard the door slammed shut.
“When do you want to leave for Marbella?” I want to leave now but we have to see Chad. I need to speak to his doctor and make arrangements. I want him to recover in Marbella. He needs a change of scene. London will bring too many bad memories and his gambling druggie friends are running about town.
“Tonight—as soon as it can be arranged. I have to contact my pilot and speak to Chad’s doctor first.”
She reached up to me smiling. “Good then I’ll pack after we get back from the hospital. I’ll go get changed now, I bet Chad’s been waiting.” She scrambled off the bed but I caught her wrist. “Where do you think you’re going? We’re not done.”