And he gives me a hard squeeze, making me gasp. Another picture and another flash.
I jerk, but instead of covering myself, I…
I like it. Chills spread across my skin, and I want more. I want to be looked at.
Alex snaps another picture, and I don’t know what she sees or what she’s focused on, but she’s watching us now as Samara and David go at it on the other side of the tanks, and Michael touches me. Where’s Lev? I still can’t see, so I don’t know.
“We wouldn’t have made it through dinner, Michael,” I whisper, breathing in his skin. “You would’ve felt me and known—all I wanted was you. I wouldn’t have been able to wait anymore.”
Michael takes my hand and guides two of my fingers down between my legs, sliding them inside of me. My pussy throbs, and I groan, needing so much more. He brings my hand back up and slips each finger into his mouth, sucking me off from them.
The camera snaps again as Michael’s hot tongue glides slowly across my fingers. Samara cries out in the distance, coming.
But then, suddenly, a hot breath falls across my face, and I hear heavy breathing. My heart stops for a moment. Who is that?
“Do that again,” Lev suddenly whispers, and I hear him swallow. “Please.”
I pant, my heart hammering.
Oh, my God.
Michael holds my face, kissing my cheek, jaw, and neck. “Do you trust me?” he asks.
I…
I nod.
“Then why would you ever think the idea of children with any other woman wouldn’t make me sick?” he whispers, and I can hear the pain in his voice. “We will have kids. If you want them. But I will never not have you.” He shakes me. “Do you understand?”
A sob lodges in my throat.
“Do you understand?” he growls again. “A world where there is no us can’t happen.”
We kiss, and I barely notice as Michael takes my hand and dips it down between my legs again. Oh, God. I start to cry, but I calm myself, the heartache breaking me, and I don’t know why. Why did I ever doubt him? I can live without a lot of things, but I can’t live without him. Why did I not trust the same from him?
Pressing my two fingers inside me, he withdraws them and holds my hand up, not sucking on it, though.
“Do you trust me?” he asks again.
“Yes.”
He holds my hand out, and I barely have a moment to register what’s happening before Lev grabs my hand. I gasp as the flash clicks again. Slowly, the wet heat of his mouth covers my finger, and my mouth falls open as I whimper, his tongue making every hair on my body stand on end. Michael kneads my breast, possessive and breathing hard in my ear as Lev licks my fingers clean, gently biting them.
“I love watching you feel,” Michael says. “I love your face.”
Lev sucks the other finger clean, long and slow, and I know he’s looking down at me. Michael squeezes me as he buries his whispers in my neck and grinds his cock under me.
“I can’t follow the rules,” he says, “and with you, I don’t have to. I’m not alone. I can’t go back to being alone.” He hovers over my lips, our mouths open and hungry. “I can’t fucking breathe without my little monster.”
Little Monster.
I breathe out a half-laugh, half-cry. “I love you, Michael.” I kiss him. “I love you so much.”
He dives into my mouth, and I grab hold of the armrests to steady myself, but I grab Lev’s wrists instead, his hands already wrapped around the arms of the chair. I don’t move my hands off him.
“Do you trust me?” Michael breathes out.
“Forever.”