She pointed at the apartment tower down the road and sniveled.
“What's your name?”
“Leslie,” she mumbled.
He crouched at her side. “Leslie, how about you head home? It's not safe out here.”
Tears burst from her throat as she shuffled away from him.
Fuck. He crossed his arms around his knees to keep from going to her. Last thing he needed was someone accusing him of being a pedophile. “Go home, Leslie.”
She shook her head in hard, jerky movements, the whites of her eyes glassy and wet in the headlights.
His skin tightened, and nausea hit his stomach. He knew that look, one bred of abuse and neglect. He forced himself back to the car and sat there for endless minutes, staring straight ahead, his eyes watering. What could he do?
He slammed his hand against the steering wheel. He'd gone through such a long period of feeling nothing, refusing to allow his miserable past to morph into a selfish need to run back to Amber. But his heart was growing frailer by the minute. He fucking needed her.
But he couldn’t just leave this little girl. If she were Livana, he’d remove her from her toxic home.
Kidnapping.
Okay, not an option. He snagged the doll and returned to the girl, dropping on one knee before her. “Whatever it is, Leslie, it's not your fault.” What else had he wanted to hear at her age? “It's okay to be scared. Your mother loves you.”
Jesus, he sounded like an asshole. But when he handed her the doll, she hugged it to her chest. Then she sighed.
It was a tiny thing, that sigh of happiness, but from it breathed a rush of wind that liberated him. He could return to Amber, not as a stalker and rapist but as an honest man. She could love him back or reject him because she deserved to make that choice. The choice he’d wanted so desperately as a child.
He climbed into the car and made an anonymous phone call. Then he moved the Mustang down the street and kept an eye on her. Fifteen minutes later, red and blue lights flashed around the corner. The police wouldn’t always be there for her, but maybe they would help her tonight.
He didn't look in the rear-view mirror as he pulled away. Amber was forward, Livana was forward, and that was where he needed to be.
As he made the twenty-minute drive to her porch, his anxiety rose to a level Amber would've been all too familiar with. What if she'd taken another lover? Another deliveryman? What if Livana had moved elsewhere? Christ, he should've kept an eye on them.
With a churning stomach, he passed the side street he usually parked on. A few seconds later, he pulled into Amber's driveway and turned off the car.
Something moved on the porch. A stray cat? No, a person-sized shadow, sitting right there. He strained his eyes through the dark, waiting for them to adjust. Dark hair, wide eyes...Amber? Face frozen in...Panic? Confusion? Shock?
He fumbled for the door handle, catching it on the second pass. His legs shook as he rounded the front bumper, his eyes glued on the woman rising from the bench.
Sliding the hood off his head, he quickened his gait, his heart slamming into his throat. She's on the porch. Outside. And she's not flipping her shit?
Fuck him, she did it. A smile stretched across his face. Of course, she fucking did.
She leapt off the porch and ran toward him, her legs flexing in tiny black shorts, her gorgeous tits stretching her t-shirt.
He held out his arms to catch her, his pulse racing in anticipation to hold her body, to kiss her lips—
Her hand landed across his face in a stinging slap. “Six months, Van Quiso.” She smacked him again, her eyes blazing. “One hundred and eighty-three fucking days!”
Her tiny fists went crazy, raining down on his torso in pummeling strikes. She got in some bruising punches, but dammit, he couldn't stop grinning. God, he missed her feistiness.
When she lowered her arms and gazed up at him, her beautiful makeup-free face softened beneath the glow of the streetlight. “You came.”
Christ, he wanted to kiss her. “You waited.”
She raised a finger, pointing at the bench. “Right there. One hundred and sixty-four nights.”
His heart squeezed. With pain. With pleasure. “What did you do the other nineteen nights?”
Her lips slid into a foxy grin. “I made little Van voodoo dolls and stabbed them with toothpicks.” Her smile fell. “Are you seeing anyone?”
The worry pulling at her expression made him sick to his stomach. He cupped her face and guided her mouth to his, just close enough to kiss. “There's only been you, Amber.” He brushed their lips. “If we're not counting my hand.”
He captured her mouth, or maybe she took his, but their tongues met with equal hunger, lips mashing through drugging licks. When he tilted his head and demanded deeper entry, she surrendered, melting against him with her fingers in his hair.
His kiss grew punishing, urgent and rough, his hands more so. He found her tits, pinching them hard enough to make her yelp. He sucked on her upper lip, his cock throbbing against his zipper, as he caressed her firm cheeks beneath the shorts. Jesus, he'd missed her ass, and he was going to fuck her right there on the driveway if they didn't move inside.
When he pulled back, she slipped out of his arms. Walking backwards, hips swaying, she gave him a playful smile. “So you haven't had sex in six months?”
He stalked after her. “No, baby. What about you?”
She shook her head—thank Christ—then took off toward the front door, vanishing inside the house. He trailed her, his blood pumping from his heart to his dick, his jeans a painful constriction.
A quick scan through the front room gave him a sense of how much had changed, like the single clock on the wall and the way the pillows were strewn across the couch. There was no clutter, no dirt he could see, but the house didn't have the same severity it once had. Perhaps it was the addition of color. A red throw blanket, an orange rug, and a yellow
vase in the corner.
He found her in the kitchen, her eyes glimmering right before she slipped out the back door. What was she up to?
Another thing he'd missed were her endless surprises.
He stepped into the backyard, the woodsy smell of hickory scenting his inhales as he prowled toward her. She waited beneath a tall lattice trellis that adhered to the house.
He reached above her head and yanked on it. “This is new.”
Lifting her lids, she peered up at him. “When I put it together, I fantasized about you tying me to it, taking my ass with your belt. Then with your cock.”
His nostrils flared with a deep, joyful breath, and he kissed her mouth, passionately, letting her feel what her words did to him. “I regret that it's been six months since I've told you I love you.” He brushed his tongue inside her lower lip. “I love you. And I will whip and fuck your ass against this trellis when we move it to the cabin.”
The release of her breath wisped over his lips. She gripped her shirt and yanked it over her head. “I missed the way you make love to my mouth.”
What the hell was she doing? Oh shit, there went her shorts. He gripped himself through the jeans and tried to restrain himself. He should scan their surroundings, check for gawking neighbors, but he couldn’t drag his eyes from her, too afraid if he looked away, she’d disappear.
She hooked her thumbs into the sides of her panties. “I missed the warm, wet feel of that first slide of your tongue against mine, the way you tease and pull back. Mmmm. Then you take over with your big, manly confidence and control. I miss that, Van.”
Her panties slid to her ankles, and she leaned against the trellis passively, submissively, awaiting his command.
His arousal fed so greedily on her submission, there wasn't a chance in hell he could stop this. A glance at Liv's house validated his position was in eyeshot of her back door. Fuck it.
He released the zipper on his jeans, and his already excited cock jumped as he shoved his pants and briefs to his knees. “Still on the pill?”
She nodded, her smoldering gaze fixed on his cock, making him impossibly harder.