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Probably an inappropriate time for Van's cock to get hard, but fuck him, Amber's jealousy was as sexy as her tight little body. He leaned against the kitchen counter, shoved a hand in his pocket, and gave his dick a firm pinch, not that it helped.

Her jealousy, however, was bred from her poor self-worth, which was the root of the bulimia, the need for perfection, and the avoidance of outside.

She held her composure admirably, but that didn't mean her insecurities weren't bursting at the seams. Her hands were behind her back, so he leaned in, straining to hear the crack of her knuckles. The popping didn’t come, but her cheeks flushed a lovely shade of pink. And was that a growl in her throat?

Somehow, she pulled off a pleasant voice. “Why would you need to see her?”

Because his daughter was growing up without him. Because his infrequent visits to Liv's window over the past three weeks weren't turning up any information. There'd been nothing on her possible connections with the cartel or FBI; nothing to tell if she was using those connections to trap him in the event he attempted to contact their daughter.

His involvement in Mr. E's operation was still unknown to authorities. If he surfaced, it would threaten his freedom and ironically Amber's. Liv would rat him out if she sensed even a hint of danger with regard to their daughter. Prison was not an option.

The one thing he wouldn't do was take Livana from her stable life with Mr. E's widow. Despite his history with kidnapping, he would never do that to his daughter. Fuck, he just wanted to be a part of her life and needed to make sure Liv understood that.

He turned the glass of tequila on the counter round and round as he collected his thoughts. Telling Amber about his purpose with Liv meant revealing his parenthood and exposing the looming reason he'd taken Amber, why he'd worked so hard to help her conquer the disorders. She would eventually find out his intention to use her as a character reference with Liv. How would she react to that? Would she think he was using her? Was he?

He used her body for his pleasure, and he depended on her strength to be a better man. But most days, it was a damned struggle to reconcile his goal with all the sentimental crud sticking to his heart. He was so wrapped up in Amber, adrift in the most thrilling moments of his life, he'd lost his bearings.

Amber’s health and happiness were as important to him as his daughter’s was. In fact, his goals with Livana had become secondary to his relationship with Amber. And that scared him to fucking death.

As he stared into the worried brown eyes of the woman he'd come to adore more than any person in the world, he realized she owned him as much as he owned her. He clung to that heady, full-body feeling because it infused his every thought with hope.

It was also turning him into a cherry-scented, floaty-hearted sissy fuck.

Why did he need to see Liv? He twisted his lips into a charming smile, but the effort hurt. “She has something I want.”

At an arm’s length away, she glanced down at her tits, then her hips, and looked away with a pained expression. No doubt she'd filtered his words into something like Liv has something you don't have. She was oblivious to the effect she had on him. How could a woman so fucking beautiful be so damned blind?

Good thing he had some time before he needed to leave. “You'll be punished for that.”

Her gaze jerked back, and she crossed her arms. “What the fuck did I do?”

“I want you to answer that question, and after your punishment, I might” —he drew out a long breath, letting her mind flicker through the possibilities— “allow you to come.”

“You're an asshole.”

“Noted.” He was delaying the eminent conversation regarding Liv, but toying with her was a delicious distraction. He rested his ass against the counter, tilted his head back, and stared at the ceiling with a dramatic amount of interest in the white brush-strokes. She would tell him why he was punishing her eventually.

She tapped her fingernails on the counter, blew out some heavy exhales, and stomped her foot twice. Not four times. “Fine. I don't know what you want from Liv, but it makes me feel” —she groaned— “inadequate.”

He awarded her honesty with the full commitment of his gaze. “Be specific.”

She pinned her lips together, fisted her hands on her hips, and glared at her feet. “Jesus, you're annoying.” She peered up at him, then back at her feet, and mumbled, “My boobs—”

“I can't hear you.”

She huffed then hardened her voice. “My boobs are fake and plasticky. She's probably beautifully natural.”

He hooked a knuckle beneath her chin, lifting her face to capture her eyes. “She's both beautiful and natural” —her jaw stiffened, and he squeezed it— “but she's got jack shit on a beauty queen.”

Her chin pressed down on his hand, stubbornly and uselessly.

“What else?”

She shifted her weight from foot to foot. “My hips are fat.” Her voice wobbled into a seething shout. “And that's your fault!”

There it was. He'd been waiting for it. Bulimia was the quietest of the disorders, the one they hadn't discussed since her first day here. But he never left her alone until her food settled, strictly limiting her opportunities to puke.

He crouched at her feet and gripped her thighs beneath the short skirt, lifting the hem to her waist with the slide of his hands. “You're done with your calorie-counting world of size zero.”

“There's nothing wrong with size zero. Runway models—”

“If you want to look like a starving creature, you better have drool clinging to your chin and your mouth reaching for my cock.” He leaned forward and sank his teeth into the flesh on her thigh.

She jerked in his hold, and he bit down ruthlessly into her flexing quad. If she'd gained any weight at all, it was muscle. She was a fucking machine during their morning workouts.

He kissed the two half-moon indentions he'd given her and pressed his nose against her bare pussy. Christ, he loved that she didn't have panties at his house. As he breathed in her sweet scent, her hips trembled beneath his gr

ip. It had only been two hours since he'd fucked her, yet his cock was as stiff as the night he'd met her.

He lowered the skirt and stood. “Wipe your mind of all your preconceived notions of how you think I see you.” He touched her cheek and really looked at her, the glow of her skin, the dark fall of hair around her shoulders, her sultry fuck-me lips, and the rise of her full tits. Defined biceps, slender throat, petite nose, everything about her ensnared him. He could stare at her for hours, losing himself in her beauty. He brushed her hair behind her ear. “How do I see you, Amber?”

Her eyes were bright and glassy, peeking up at him through dense lashes. “You think I'm...pretty.”

Not the word he would've chosen for the exquisite view before him, but it pointed her the right direction. “Good girl.” He kissed her softly, happily, humming his contentment. “Now you can ask your questions.”

She fingered the lapels of his suit jacket, sliding her hands up and down the folds of finely woven wool. “What does Liv have that you want?”

“Mm.” He fisted his hands behind his back. Stop delaying, dickhead. “It's time to visit that display cabinet.”

She arched her eyebrows. “You're ready to tell me?”

Fuck no. “Yeah.”

He led her to the garage, loosening the tie and rubbing his tight neck. He'd practiced how he would tell her for weeks, but as they stood before the lifelike reminders of the family he'd longed for, his carefully composed speech disintegrated, and his polluted heart clawed out of his throat.

“In thirty-three years, there have only been four people I've given a shit about, that I'd even consider putting before myself.” He opened the glass door, his mouth dry. “The first two didn't love me back.”

“Your mother and Liv.” She stated it not as a question but as a realization as she stared at the dolls, her elbows tucked to her sides, her fingers trembling on her bottom lip.

He touched the hair on the mannequin, his token of Liv. But as the soft strands slipped through his caress, he didn't feel the usual heaviness in his chest. Instead, his pulse raced with nervousness. He hadn't intended on telling her about the hair, but he longed for her to accept all the ugly parts of him.


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