“Yeah, that’s why you have a headache.”Chapter 10BakerThe look on Seth’s face was brutal. It was easy to see that he blamed himself for me nearly being taken. Seth considered himself the in-charge alpha, so he would take it personally. Looking into his eyes, though, made me want to believe there was something more. Was it possible he’d started feeling something for me…like I had for him? I wanted to believe it. My heart begged me to. My head told me to slow my roll.
My body? Oh, hell. That was a totally different story altogether. I wanted him. I wanted him in every single carnal way my imagination could delight my senses with. As soon as I’d come into my right mind at the hospital, I’d immediately searched the room for him. When my eyes found him, I’d felt the calmness wash over me. That calmness, however, hadn’t lasted very long. As I’d lain there, having things shoved down my throat and up my nose, I’d also had to endure watching every damned person that walked into my cubicle look Seth up and down with the same hungry look that had to be on my face right now. They’d all wanted him and with all the shit crammed in every orifice of my body, I hadn’t been able to lay claim to him. I’d had no choice but to endure having my stomach pumped while having my heart stomped on at the same damn time. I’d been so fucking jealous, I’d expected everything they pulled from my body to be green.
I was tired of trying to fight or understand my feelings. Just so fucking tired. I’d stopped trying to question why I felt the way I felt about Seth. I didn’t need an explanation…I needed him.
And I was tired of waiting.
“What are you thinking, Baker?” Seth asked softly. “I know I shouldn’t have left you alone. Trust me, I’ve beaten myself up every damned second since I realized you were gone. I fucked up. I know that.”
“Shut up, Seth.” He needed to get over acting like he was a he-man and I was the damsel in distress. I might be submissive in the bedroom and playroom, but I was as capable an agent as he was. Well…except for the fact that I’d gotten myself drugged and he hadn’t.
Seth looked shocked but didn’t make any attempts to fight back or defend himself. I stood up and he literally took a step back from me. It almost made me laugh. Almost. I was too turned on to laugh. He’d flaunted that hot body of his in front of me so often that he’d finally pushed me past my limits. Reaching down, I grabbed the hem of my shirt, pulled it over my head, and tossed it onto the couch. “The bedroom. Now.”
When walking past him, I noted his mouth gaped wide open. I kept walking, hoping he’d follow…trusting he’d never hurt me, physically or emotionally. I hadn’t taken too many steps until I heard him fall in behind me. An explosion of fireworks went off inside my body. I was nervous, yes, but far too aroused to let anything silly like nerves get in my way. In my head, Seth belonged to me. I belonged to Seth. It was past time we consummated the physical aspect of our relationship.
Inside the bedroom, my eyes went straight to the king-sized bed. The bedding was still rumpled from the morning. Knowing it would smell like Seth, my feet walked straight in that direction. I sat down on the edge and turned around to face him. As I suspected, he lingered in the doorway. His eyes were dark with arousal, but wary, as well.
Fuck, wary. I was tired of us dancing around each other.
“There’s no need to put on a show, Baker,” he said, nodding toward the opened balcony doors. “Landon’s men couldn’t find any sign of life behind the telescope. I thought I told you that already.”
I shrugged. “You did.”
The scrub pants they’d found me at the hospital were baggy, so it didn’t take much effort on my part. All I had to do was lift my hips up and shimmy straight out of them. Since the damned leather pants hadn’t left room for underwear, when the scrubs were removed, I was completely naked. I might be unsure of how Seth felt about me regarding any type of permanent relationship, but I knew he found my body attractive. This part, the sex, didn’t worry me. I might not be potential boyfriend material, but he wanted inside my body…exactly where I wanted him.
“What? Are you worried your performance might not be up to par?” I asked. I looked over my shoulder and nodded toward the doors, just like he’d done. I winked at him. “Don’t get stage fright, babe. I have faith in your, uh…” I looked him up and down before adding, “Abilities.”