“I was afraid you were… done with me,” I whisper, just as he gently moves his fingers over my aching clit.
“Christ, woman, you really don’t listen. I told you last time what I wanted with you. I’ve tried to show you that you’re special to me,” he mumbles against my skin as he kisses along the side of my neck and then moves down, leaving a trail of kisses all the way to my breast. Then, he sucks my nipple, pressing it hard into his mouth—to the point that it’s almost painful. He somehow twists the nipple in his mouth, his teeth raking against the sensitive nub, at the same moment his fingers pinch my clit. My body thrusts up against him, a soft cry leaving me. “What more can I do to show you what you mean to me, Toi? What can I say that will finally get through to you?” he growls as his mouth bites softly into my skin, making a path down my stomach.
I grab him by his hair. I know where this is going and, as much as I love it when he uses his mouth on me, that’s not what I want this time. I want to confess to him that I’m afraid his interest in me is solely based on the fact that I saved his life. I don’t want him out of a sense of duty, but I don’t know how to tell him that. Plus, telling him that right now will only make him stop. That’s something I absolutely don’t want.
I pull on his hair to stop him from moving down.
“No,” I tell him when he raises his head and his gaze locks with mine.
“Toi?”
“I don’t want your mouth this time, Marcum. I want you.”
“Dragonfly—”
“I want to feel you inside of me. If you really mean it, Marcum. If you’re going to keep me, then really make me yours,” I tell him, using what courage I have to get that plea out.51MarcumI was planning on claiming her completely all along, but I wanted to make it slow. I wanted to give her my mouth first. I didn’t plan on Toi begging me to take her. Her sweet words slide down inside of me like the most expensive whiskey.
Women in my life have been hardened by life; they’re cold in certain ways. It’s always been that way from the first to the last. Toi is completely different. I thought she was too weak for my life, but she proved me wrong. I’m starting to realize that she’s the complete opposite of weak. She is the strongest woman I’ve met. Life may have had her bending backwards to survive, but it didn’t harden her, it didn’t make her jaded. Through everything she’s experienced, it’s made her stronger, but appreciative… loving.
I knew what Max found with Tess was rare; that’s why I encouraged him to face hell so he could keep her. I was even envious to a point. But, not once did I think what he found would ever happen to me.
I was wrong.
Toi is sunshine in my world—a world that has been cold and empty for as long as I can remember.
I don’t know why I keep hesitating, except for the fact that Toi is special. But, fuck… she’s right. I’m too old to keep waiting and if she’s worrying that I’m not claiming her because I don’t want her—I need to stop it.
I go back on my knees, straddling her body as I pull the lips of her pussy apart. Her juices have coated the outside of her lips until they shimmer. She’s so wet it makes my balls ache.
“Is this what you want, honey?” I groan as I hold my cock in my hand and run the head of my shaft against her wet pussy.
“Yes,” she hisses, and it’s like music to my ears.
I should use my fingers to ready her for me. I don’t know how experienced Toi is, but I doubt she’s had much. She’s tight, I haven’t fucked her deep with my fingers, because I wanted my cock to be the first part of my body to stretch her. I want her pussy shaped to fit my dick like a glove. I don’t want to hurt her, but she’s so wet I should slide inside of her pretty easy. I just have to keep my head about me, remember to go slow. That won’t be easy. That’s for damn sure. Toi is a drug to my system.
“Put your feet flat on the bed, Toi, and open up for me honey. I want to watch as I sink inside of you,” I murmur, my gaze glued to the pre-cum on the head of my dick, the way it clings to her clit, and the strand stretching as she rocks against me.