“No. You’ve been out raising hell.”
She laughed. “A little. Work has been keeping me busy.” She started talking about a twist of corporate law that had nearly doubled her billable hours.
Matt watched more than listened. He admired the play of light on her perfect skin, the way she moved her hands as she spoke. She was elegant and amusing, telling her story with just the right combination of confidence and humor. They would have been the perfect couple. Neither overly interested in romantic love, finding contentment in good sex and the occasional dinner.
Then he thought about his son, how Gabe looked when he smiled. He thought about the games and toys scattered around the house. How the kid was always sticky and happy and pure joy.
“Do you ever think about having kids?” he asked.
Jade’s eyes widened. “Dear God, no. Children? Why?”
“I like kids.”
“Since when?”
A woman with long, blond hair walked by. Thinking she looked a lot like Jesse, he turned, but it wasn’t her. Why would she be here in the middle of the day? She was at the bakery, making her brownies. He could see her there, flour on her nose, her blue eyes dancing with amusement.
“Matt?” Jade asked, her voice sharp.
What the hell was he doing? Not just here, having lunch, but with the lawsuit? He didn’t want to take Gabe away from his mother and he sure as hell didn’t want Jesse destroyed.
“I’m sorry,” he said as he stood. “I have to go.”
She glared at him. “You’re leaving? Let me be clear. You won’t get another chance with me.”
Matt didn’t even respond as pulled out his cell phone and dialed Heath’s office. His lawyer’s assistant said he was in court and couldn’t be reached.
Matt swore and hung up, then made his way to his car and drove the few blocks to Heath’s office. He had to stop Jesse from being served. He had to destroy the papers, make sure she never knew. He had to make this right.
What had he been thinking? That by punishing her now, he could change the past? He couldn’t. It was done. Yeah, what she’d done had been shitty and he had every right to be pissed at her, but he had to deal with that head-on. Not take away her kid. He didn’t want to lose her or Gabe. He wanted them both in his life.
Diane had been right. He’d never stopped loving her.
The realization crashed into him. He loved Jesse. He’d always loved her. Maybe from that first moment, when she’d called his name on a sidewalk outside of a Starbucks and changed his life forever.
He drove faster than he should, raced through a yellow light and parked illegally outside of his lawyer’s office. The elevator seemed to take forever. What if they’d already been sent out? What if he couldn’t take it back? Finally he hurried into the office and found Heath’s assistant.
“I need to find out the status of some papers,” he said, telling himself he was in time. He had to be. “It’s urgent. They should not be served.”
She took a couple of steps back and nodded, looking wary. “Um, sure, Mr. Fenner. Let me check.”
“They were going to Jesse Keyes and they’re about our son. I don’t want her served. Do you get that? I want every copy of those papers given to me personally.”
She went on her computer and typed for a couple of seconds. “They’re still here.”
Relief washed through him. “Good. Collect all the copies and give them to me.”
“I can’t give them to you without speaking to Heath and that won’t be for a couple of hours. Can I have them messengered to your office?”
He didn’t want to wait. He wanted to hold them in his hands and know that he was safe. That he had a chance to make everything right.
“Fine,” he said, knowing his only alternative was to take them by force. “I want them today.”
“Of course, Mr. Fenner.” She smiled tightly, as if eager for him to leave.
Matt nodded and headed out. He reached for his cell phone again, then decided to go straight to the Eastside. He could pick up Gabe from his mom’s and take him over to the bakery. He didn’t know exactly what he was going to say to Jesse, but he would figure it out. She loved him. She’d told him that and if she loved him, everything was going to be fine.
JESSE KNEW SHE WAS going to throw up. Not that it mattered. Vomiting was the least of it. The horror and fear were so big, she couldn’t feel much of her body. She was mostly numb and maybe that was a good thing.
She’d come home for lunch on a whim only to be met in the driveway by a small man wearing a suit. He’d asked if she was Jesse Keyes and then had handed her an envelope. Inside were words that made her heart stop beating.
Now she stood in the center of Paula’s kitchen, re-reading, hoping she’d misunderstood. She had to. He couldn’t have done this to her.
“Jesse?”
She looked up and saw Paula looking very worried. Without saying anything, Jesse handed over the paper work. Paula skimmed it, gasped and swayed, then passed it to Bill.
Jesse walked to the stool at the counter and sat down. She couldn’t think, couldn’t breathe. This wasn’t happening. There had to be a mistake.
In the background, she heard the happy music from a DVD Gabe was watching. He would be busy with that for at least a half-hour, which gave her time to pull herself together. Assuming that was possible.
She hurt everywhere. There was panic, as well, but she couldn’t give in to the fear. She had to stay strong. No matter what it cost, no matter how she had to fight, she wasn’t going to let Matt take away her son.
Strong arms wrapped around her shoulders as Bill offered physical support.
“We’ll get the bastard,” he told her, his voice low and firm. “We’ll take him down.”
“Can we?” she asked, barely able to speak. “I don’t know what to think, what to feel. This isn’t the Matt I know. He could never do that. Never hurt me and Gabe that way. Oh, God, Gabe.”
She fought tears even as her eyes began to burn. “He loves his dad. He can’t get caught between us and I won’t give him up.” She couldn’t imagine life without her son. “I don’t understand. How could Matt do this? I’d always thought we’d come to some agreement. That we’d talk and figure things out together. I thought he wanted that, too.” She’d been wrong.
She knew he was angry, that he blamed her for keeping Gabe from him and…
Her brain slowly cleared. “He’s doing this to punish me,” she whispered. “He wants me to miss out the way he did. He wants me to suffer.”
“No,” Paula said, from Jesse’s other side. “He wouldn’t.” But she didn’t sound convinced.
Jesse covered her face with her hands. Of course, she thought. Everything made sense now. He’d been playing her from the beginning. All of it was a lie. Every second of their time together had been part of his plan. He’d done a hell of a job, she thought grimly.
“I trusted him. I encouraged him to get to know Gabe. I helped him and all the time he’s been setting this up. He put me through all that crap about how I’d taken his son away from him. He made me feel horrible. He made me crawl, all while he knew he was going to try to take Gabe from me.”
There was only silence around her. It was enough to let her know that Bill and Paula feared she was right.
The sense of betrayal was nearly as great as her fear of losing her son. She’d gone to Matt with the incredibly stupid thought that he deserved to get to know his child. She’d been open and giving and honest. She’d exposed her soul to him. She’d confessed her deepest secrets, shown the worst side of herself and, for the second time, he’d turned on her.
“It was just a game,” she murmured. “A game of revenge. He made me believe in him, then he ripped out my heart.”
They’d made love, she thought, humiliated beyond words. She remembered the last time they’d been together. How perfect it had been, how connected she’d felt. Then she remembered how he’d had a condom in his pocket. An amazing coincidence she hadn’t noticed before. He’d planned everything, down to the last detail. From pretending to be her friend to seducing her until she trusted him.
She stood up and brushed the tears from her cheeks. “No! He’s not going to win. I didn’t deliberately do anything wrong and he’s doing this on purpose. He’s not going to get Gabe. I can’t let him.”
“No, you can’t,” Paula said sadly. “I don’t know what to say. This isn’t my son. Matt isn’t like this.” Only she didn’t sound sure.
Jesse didn’t bother pointing out that Matt had obviously changed a lot in the past five years.
“You have us,” Bill told her. “We’ll fight this. He won’t win.”
She appreciated the support and knew she was going to need it. Matt would be a formidable opponent. But what neither of them understood was that he’d already claimed a good part of his victory. He’d stolen her heart for a second time, then returned it broken and bleeding.
He might have done his best to destroy her emotionally, but he wasn’t the only one who had changed. She was stronger than he could imagine. He could do what he wanted to her but Matt was never, ever taking Gabe from her. She would fight him to the death if she had to.
The difference between them was that while he would revel in his thoughts of triumph, hers only made her sad. Defeating her son’s father wasn’t going to be a victory for anyone, especially not Gabe.
MATT ARRIVED AT HIS mother’s house, only to find no one home. He went by the bakery, but Nicole hadn’t seen her sister since lunch. He returned to his office with a vague feeling of unease. Jesse wasn’t answering her cell phone.
He told himself that he would catch up with her later, only he had a gnawing sense he had to talk to her now.
It was nearly two when the door to his office burst open and Bill walked in.
Matt saw past him to Diane’s empty desk. Had the old guy timed his visit when his assistant was out of the way or had he just gotten lucky? Did it matter? One look at Bill’s face told him there was a big problem and Matt could easily guess what it was.
He stood to face the other man, cursing the disaster that couldn’t be undone. Jesse had been served. She’d read the papers, she knew what he’d had planned. She was hurt, confused and probably terrified.
“Let me be clear,” Bill said. “I’ll do whatever is necessary to take you down. When I’m done with you, just lying in the gutter will seem like a step up.”
Matt had to respect the other man’s balls, even as he knew it was all just talk. There was nothing Bill could do to hurt him.
“She got the papers,” he said, ignoring the threat. “She wasn’t supposed to.”
“So it’s a clerical error,” Bill said sarcastically. “Great. I’ll tell her that, because that will make everything just fine. She can sure ignore the fact that you planned all this, that you set her up. What the hell were you thinking, boy? Trying to take away Gabe? Why not just take a lung or a kidney? You’ve seen them together. You’ve seen how much they love each other. They’re a family. You don’t mess with that. Who the hell are you to hurt Jesse this way?”
Matt felt every one of those words as if they were individual punches. They hit him hard in the gut and the chest and the heart.
“I can explain,” he started, knowing it was a feeble attempt at best.
“Explain what? That you didn’t lie? To Jesse? To all of us? It’s too late for that. Whatever it takes, Jesse will win. Your mom and I will make sure that happens.”
Because they were on Jesse’s side. He was oddly comforted to know that she wasn’t in this alone.